Never mind, I'll find someone like you...
I just want someone to hold me like you did. To make me feel safe and protected and warm.
Maybe even loved.
I want to rest my head on a solid chest. To feel hands intertwined in mine. Making me feel connected.
To feel strong arms around me, holding me close. To hear a heart beating. To feel rhythmic breathing.
I want fingers to run through my hair. Calming me. Making me feel beautiful again. Wanted. Needed.
To be there for someone as they are there for me. To feel skin against my own. A kiss on my hair. Lips against mine.
I want strong arms to hold me together. To stop me from breaking. To steady my breathing. To keep me from screaming.
I want to know that you want me. Care for me. Need me.
I don't want to doubt. Don't want to know the truth. To know that I was a burden. I wasn't fun or carefree like you thought I'd be.
I was work. Work you weren't ready for.
I don't want to be lied to. Deceived. To be told I was special. To be told you really wanted me.
I'm worth more than that and I deserve someone who knows it. Who wants me. Who loves me. Who won't make me feel like an inconvenience. An annoyance.
Someone who won't lie to me. Whose face won't betray the ugly truth behind the sweet words.
Someone I can count on. Someone I can be myself with. Who loves everything about me.
Someone who can cheer me up like you can, but who won't be the reason I'm upset in the first place.
So yes, I need someone like you, but I deserve someone far better.
