The One

He's got a smile that could light up the world,
but he doesn't want anyone to see.
He hides behind his pain and lies,
he can't imagine true happiness.
His world is full of storms and strife
when it should be full of hope.
Confusion consumes his days
uncertainty, his nights.
His concern for others overwhelms,
it engulfs his identity.
He's wrapped inside a web of lies,
screaming to be set free.

If he could only find the one,
the one to release him from the pain.
The girl he seeks embodies true beauty within,
she truly understands.
But every time he thinks he's found her
she eludes him once again.
If only he could catch her,
then everything would be all right.
But does she truly hold the answer?
Can she honestly end the ache?
His raw, bleeding heart screams "yes!"
but in his mind he doubts.

Only one can fully restore,
only one can resurrect
a broken soul, a crushed heart.
His name echoes in eternity,
the sky pours forth His glory.
All creation bows before Him,
His power and His might.
All He requires is all of you.
Scream out His name and feel His presence.
His heart breaks for the desperate,
He alone comforts the weary,
His peace can offer endless freedom.
Though the life He offers won't always be easy,
He will never leave you.

So cry out to Him and cling to His mercy.
Let an overwhelming surge of love crash over and engulf.
Be consumed by His power,
experience His grace.
Only then will there be relief.

One Day

I know there's something better
Something perfect waiting for me
If I can just hold out until I can finally see

Then all I've ever dreamed will be before my eyes
I can't wait for my day of understanding
The day it all becomes clear
When I finally see what's been waiting for me
The plan that was in place from the start

All the times my heart was breaking
All the tears I cried
All the confusion and pain
All the sadness, the hardships, the temptations

The days that never made sense
The days that pushed me to the edge
The days that left me begging for help
The days I fell to my knees

But one day the sky will be clear
My clouds will disappear
The storms will calm for a moment
And I'll see all that I hold most dear
In the center of everything, patient and strong
The One who's been there all along

My joy, my redeemer, my father, my friend
My shelter, my comfort, my saviour and then
I'll finally see all that He's done
His perfect plan, in place from the start
He has always been there, holding my heart

Inside

I want to get out of here
This hurts too much
I can't stay
But if I leave, you'll disappear
I don't know what to do or say
I'm screaming inside
Tears should fall from my eyes
But I keep it all together on the outside

Without

I hate that I can't think about you without remembering what we were, without being hurt, without feeling wonderfully hopeful and then horribly hurt, without imagining that we're still together, without feeling your hand in mine, without wishing we could go back, without wanting to cry at what would have made me laugh or smile before, without wondering what went wrong, without overanalyzing everything, without wishing I could take it all back, without wondering if it was all a lie.

I hate that our friendship is gone. And I hate that you're not the only one to blame.

Back

I wish I could go back.
Back to when things were easy.
When heartbreak was just a fear I didn't truly understand.
When my deepest anguish came from things unrequited, not things that ended.
When I'd never really known the loss of a friend or a piece of my heart.
When I was still innocent and free.
Back to when the future held all my possibilities and I'd given nothing up.
When I still held all the parts of my heart and I hadn't given them away.
When I was naive enough to think I'd felt real pain.

But those days are gone and there's no going back.
Now I can only learn from my mistakes and move on.
One day this will all seem a distant memory and I'll finally understand.
I'll see it all clearly and praise Him for His plan.
I won't feel the hurt, the confusion or pain.
I'll thank Him for bringing me to where I am, through the trials and the heartache.
Because I know His plan is perfect and He knows what's best.
The things I go through all have a bigger purpose.
And even if I can't see it now I know one day I will, and when that day comes all of this will fade away.

You Are

You are lovely.
You are matchless.
You create all things and hold all things.
Your perfection is mind blowing.
You know everything.
You do not allow pain without reason,
even when that reason escapes us, it does not escape you
You are beautiful.
"Beautiful" was created in an attempt to describe you!
Your glory is reflected in all things!
Everything we find beautiful is nothing when compared to you!
You are all!
Sunsets, sunrises, fields, flowers, colors, music, stars, galaxies...
all of these things pale in comparison to you!
You created them to reflect your glory in a small way.
A way that our human minds could handle,
because if we were exposed to your true glory, we would explode!
We would fall on our faces, screaming your praises!
NOTHING can compare to you!
In you alone are we found, loved, rescued, redeemed.
The joys of this earth hold NOTHING for us compared to you!
To the surpassing greatness, wonder and world-shattering joy of you!
You create all things, you know all things and all things bow to you.
I am incapable of even shedding light on your glory.
There are no words, no songs, no pictures; nothing that can praise you as you deserve.
But still you ask for our feeble attempts and you delight in them!
Even though they are absolutely nowhere near close to expressing you,
they still bring you joy!
And the craziest thing? Sometimes we won't even offer them,
our miniscule attempts at praise.
We're "too busy" or "too proud" or "too preoccupied"
Too busy for our Creator?!
Too proud for the Saviour who became one of us in order to save us?!
Too preoccupied for the One who is always there for us?!
How can I be too tired for you?
You created me! You never fail me! You sacrificed your perfect Son for me!
YOU GAVE IT ALL FOR ME!
How can I put anything before you?
You should constantly pervade my thoughts, overwhelm my life, captivate my self!
You should be my absolute everything!